how do u know if you are having a real feeling or if you are inventing the feeling.
i have a dream of becoming an actress...
so...
i wonder sometimes about what i could make myself feel...
could i make myself cry?
get angry?
but...
sometimes when i am truly upset about something...
and i am organically begining to cry...
a thought pops up in my head "wow...look, your crying. how do you feel? could you reinvent this feeling later on camera? and cry on command?... but wait... your still crying... and not thinking about what you were thinking about before that was making you cry... so... right now you are crying and thinking about somthing else... so this is acting?...no?... is it?..."
and other times...
i think.
"wow. this movie is pretty touching... i think i should cry now."
and then i do.
so.
is that acting?
or is that me feeling touched by somthing and crying becuase i am touched by it.
even thought it was a concious descision to cry...
i was touched... and i cried...
so.
is that a true emotional exxperience?...
hmmm...
Very interesting thoughts, kt! I'll be reading everything you post... keep it up.
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